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SFDWC - Day 7
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28 drabbles for Sakuraiba for 28 days during the month of February
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saaurusDay 7
Drabble: 7. "I miss you..."
Genre: Romance/Angst
Rating: PG-13
Beta: arashikuro <3
arashikuro <3A/N: Welcome to Day 7!! It's already been a week since we started the challenege and we're still going strong! I hope I can keep up the pace for at least another week ^^! Today, I'm doing something different. This drabble is written in 1st person POV. Back in the day, I use to write everything in 1st person but I stopped because I noticed that others prefeared reading in 3rd person POV, but still I've always had a special pasion for this kind of writing. I find it easier and far more personal so I felt that this drabble couldn't work any other way. I hope you enjoy~! I don't own them, sadly.
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“Aiba,
It's been months. I haven't heard a word from you and I'm afraid I may have lost you by the time you read this, but I've wanted to write your name and pretend I could talk to you for a while. It'll make me feel assured that I’m not alone. I'll go straight to the point.
Each moment that passes and you're not here is an endless night where I'm being chased by my own nightmares. I can't sleep, hell I can't even eat thinking I may have lost you. I'm sick of pretending everything will heal with time and I'll forget you just as easily. I'm sick of being looked down on by my closest ones, thinking it's hopeless to even send you this message. But I needed to do this. I needed to know there is a possibility you're reading this. I need you Aiba. I miss you...
I've tried to forget you, believe me, but nothing ever worked. I've lost count of the times I've thought I saw you in the street and it always turned out to be someone else. It kills me, to think my mind is playing such games with me. I won’t be able to explain each occasion but It'll be much more precise if I tell you I got into an accident. I'm not sure if you would ask but, I'm fine. After I woke up from that hellish pain, my mind was clouded with you. Again, you were hunting me, even at the verge of death, and I understood I would never be able to get rid of you. Not unless I would replace you.
I went out, dated many others, thinking they would be any better than you. But I never asked for their perfection. I wanted you. I wanted to see you, feel you, kiss you again, but none of them could fill that gap that already had your shape. I blurted out your name once while I was in bed with someone. I never meant to, but it was the only way I could go through it. Of course, they got mad, and stormed off. I couldn't understand how I could have been so negligent. I stopped dating ever since. So, I agreed to let my parents take over my love life.
I'm probably boring you by now so I'll go straight to the point. I'm getting married. She is a woman from Okinawa, her name is Misaki. I don't think destiny is fair with me but at least I don't have to worry about saying the wrong name from now on. I don't have a reason to be telling you this, but our wedding is this next Sunday at the St. Mary's Cathedral in Tokyo. This is stupid of me, I know, but I wish I could see you one last time. Perhaps it would be enough to let you go. That is all I ask from you.
I will finish now, but not before I say it once again; You're the only one I'll ever love and if you feel the least bit sorry about me, do this for me and come. You don't have to say anything. I won’t. After that, you can forget about me, erase my contacts, burn my pictures, throw me away, do as you must. I will too. It's the only way I'll be able to forget you. But please, don't make me go into this life unprepared. Please... if you ever loved me, do this for me.... and I'll forget you.
Good bye, from the one you once loved;
Sakurai Sho.”
A/N: Yes, it's angst, but who knows!! It might have a happy ending! Promise there will be fluff tomorrow (kind of... ) Let me know what you think!! I appreciate your comments~!
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If only Masaki would show up...
Thank you so much for reading~!
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Tī¸ĩT why did this happened??
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I'm wondering that myself
Thanks for reading~!!
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I feel so sorry for Sho. ;__;
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Must have been very complicated for Masaki to leave Sho. Now Sho can barely live without him and everything leads him to make bad decisons! Poor Sho...
Thank you for reading~!
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Oh my god this is so wonderful!! I loved everything! The words you used, the feel that Sho loves Aiba more than his life...It's really beautiful this drabble *-*
Then I will wait for the sequel...? XD. Can't wait!!
Thanks for this <33
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Thank You!! I am very happy! You think so? Yeah, I also felt far more free with this POV.
I am so glad you liked it!
Lol!! Sequel you say xD hmm... got a lot to think about then.
Thanks for reading~!
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Thank you :')
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Hmm that's a good theory...
Thanks for reading~!! ^-^
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Thank you for your hard work bae! đ~â¤
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Have I ever disappointed you? Probably .... (muahaha!!)
Thanks for reading~!!
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This letter is too sad t.t poor Sho! I wonder why Aiba left him :(
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Thanks for reading~!